A huge passion of mine. I have been writing a novella, hoping that one day you will all get to read it. I need to get into the habit of having it on my mind. I can’t let this slip away from me. I know I can do anything my heart and mind are set to. Jk Rowling wrote Harry Potter out of a cardboard box on napkins. I am fortunate enough to have a well equipped laptop. This is to NOT forgetting my goals and dreams & to push forward with “From the mental mind of Cyn”…

How long must we hate?
to dwell in the past of sorrow.
I know I have made horrid mistakes
but there’s always a tomorrow… 3

I gave to you three important gifts
the first my heart: beaten to bits.
Secondly, my mind- lost in sanity
tworn and trotted regreted in vanity.
And at last my veins coursing my blood
pump at a time, offering you my love.
Foolishly I offered them to you
But to my submission I found you untrue…

These city lights are blinding symphonys I walk to find a purpose, a need inside of me among these dusty dirty streets I search…

We met on a rainy evening in the summertime
Don’t think I need to tell you more
I needed a raise I worked so hard for this love of mine
Still I got nothing to show for it.

Tongue tied and twisted, go on baby and go to my head.

Here’s a simplification of everything we’re going though
You plus me is bad news
But you’re a lovely creation and I like to think that I am too
But my friend said I look better without you.

Tongue tied and twisted, go on baby and go to my head.

Babe, baby believe me
If I stay it ain’t gonna be easy
Okay we’ll do it your way
But this is the last time
You’ll hear the beautiful sound of love coming down
Love on the rocks.

You love the chase but hate me for the runaround
We both just tired of the whole thing.
You tell me what you want you need you know you have to have
And I just pretend I’m listening

Too tired this time to deal with old suits you wear with your ties that won’t bind.

Babe, baby believe me
If I stay it ain’t gonna be easy
Okay we’ll do it your way
But this is the last time
You’ll hear the beautiful sound of love coming down
Love on the rocks.

Hot as hell cold as ice sip it slow cause it’s so nice
Dulls my senses drives my pain but I do it again
Burns a bit to the touch dangerous if it’s too much
If this bottle could talk
Love on the rocks

Babe, baby believe me
If I stay it ain’t gonna be easy
Okay we’ll do it your way
But this is the last time
You’ll hear the beautiful sound of love coming down
Love on the rocks.

Interlude:

“The Remembrance”

There are secrets that only me and you know of

Ones that I can’t tell a soul

A thoughtless memory for you,

A heartless one for me.

I thought you’d bring back a piece of me

That I lost some time ago

For a second it was there

Now a lifetime lost in snow.

And I keep asking myself where did we go wrong?

Or rather, where did I go wrong?

And now I am lost connectionless with unanswered questions

Along with a lifetime full of regret.

You promised you weren’t playing a twisted love game

But you did just that

Twisted my insides, made me fall in love

And left me useless. If that’s not the definition of love game, what is?

You will always be the sweetest memory that I have never had…

“Clavicles”

I wanted to reach inside you, feel your heart pounding with my name in your thoughts

I wanted to touch your insides, breathe out all of your guts

Ready for this love, My heart was open and dry

You filled me with promises, late night talks and drunken lullabies

Then you vanished

Without a single trace

And now I am left with my own thoughts

In memorial it’s a delicate race.

The things you said, the ways that you made me feel

Were so indescribable something of surreal.

I should have known that fairy tales don’t exist…

I should have known not to have fallen into your kiss.

If I could have one wish, I’d wish this all away

That I never met you, that I could never hear you say

“You are amazing, don’t ever change. I want you, I need you…”

Because nothing of the substance was any amount of truth.

The emblem of Virgo, a virgin holding sheaves of wheat in her hands symbolizes wisdom, garnered in the fields of experience. Like the true virgin, most Virgos are shy and, like a virgin tend to wait to give herself to the perfect lover, Virgo is also idealistic.

People who were born in this period are as a rule generally successful in life. They have keen, good intellects, are very discriminating about those with whom they associate, and in all business matters they have good judgment, and are not easily imposed upon or deceived. These people are more capable of going to extremes in good and evil than any other type.

You belong to a group of people known for their perfectionism and highly analytical minds.

If you’re born between the 4th and 14th of September you bring a clear and decisive viewpoint to any matter at hand. You’re a quick thinker and although you are logical in the way you live your life, you do have moments of intuition that surprise even you! Don’t become too serious though!

Good Traits:

Modest and shy
Meticulous and reliable
Practical and diligent
Intelligent and analytical

“Dark” Traits:

Fussy and a worrier
Overcritical and harsh
Perfectionist and conservative

That is so me.

You gotta follow your heart and then make it happen. Gotta tatt it on my legs to remind me to take action <3